Wednesday, October 31, 2012

After The Storm



On October 29th, worst fears were realized as Hurricane Sandy took aim at the densely populated Eastern Seaboard of the U.S. Those of us who had been in their shoes time and time again held our collective breaths; praying that everyone would heed warnings and do all possible to stay safe.

Unfortunately the best laid plans are no match against a huge storm like Sandy who eloped with an approaching system from the West. The results had disaster written all over it. 

As we watch the rescue and cleanup efforts unfold, I’m reminded what happened during the time that Hurricane Charley came to Florida in August of 2004.

Charley was nowhere as large as Sandy, but it was packing winds in a super tight center that made a nuclear bomb seem like a kiddie sparkler. 

The storm was pointed at Tampa Bay, which had been my home for 39 years. And for the first time, it looked like we weren’t going to get a glancing blow. 

At first the ensuing panic was the typical; beach and mobile home evacuations and nervous preparations for those of us who always stayed behind. The usual folks stocked up on liquor for hurricane parties. 

Suddenly the storm went from a mere tropical storm over Key West to a category four. 

The level of fear all around us was unlike anything I’d ever experienced in my life. Bridge closings, discussion of shutting off all power to the area to avoid irreparable damage to the power grid from the storm surge as well as reports of what we could expect when it came onshore; Charley was on his way and we couldn’t do anything more than hunker down and wait for him like sitting ducks.
Then without warning the storm wobbled and took a turn toward Punta Gorda and Port Charlotte; a few hours south of us. It caught everyone by surprise. 

The aftermath could only be described as a war zone.

Two friends, Alfred and Jeannine joined the relief effort. Their accounts were sobering and heart breaking. As they spoke they were numb. Some experiences can’t be put into words.

Shortly after the storm, I wrote an article for our local newspaper entitled “Life After Charley” which is pasted below. We owe a more than we could ever repay to those who selflessly give of themselves to those in need.
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Life After Charley







“It felt like an out of body experience.  We were in total shock.”

That was how my friend Jeannine Stanford described her initial reaction, when she and husband Alfred arrived in devastated Punta Gorda FL.  The Stanfords are longtime residents of the Tampa Bay area in Central Florida, where Hurricane Charley was originally expected to make landfall on August 13, 2004.  After the storm passed, Alfred and fellow members of the Clearwater Jaycees immediately contacted FEMA (Federal Emergency Management Agency) to obtain necessary credentials to help those who weren’t so lucky. 

However, nothing could mentally prepare them for what they found there.

“As soon as we got off the interstate, we saw a lot of toppled trees,” Jeannine reported.

Not long after that, their eyes began wandering over a virtual sea of destruction. 

“It looked like a nuclear bomb had gone off. House after house, building after building was completely obliterated. Alfred and I wept uncontrollably.  I snapped some photos to show our friends at home what Tampa Bay could have expected if Charley had come our way.  But I realized after shooting a single roll of film, that there wasn’t much to distinguish one pile of rubble from another. A single photograph could have told the whole story.”

Most disturbing was witnessing dazed residents sorting through the vestiges of their lives, contemplating the loss of all that was once familiar, and trying to make sense of what was left.

And Mother Nature had seen to it that those responding to their needs didn’t have an easy time of it.

Street signs were gone. With few remaining landmarks to guide them, FEMA representatives, news media, and volunteer law enforcement from other Florida counties were having difficulty getting where they were going, as most were unfamiliar with the area.  Jeannine and Alfred had the same problem.

“If one road looked clear, we’d inevitably come to a pile of rubble blocking the way.  If we turned around, it was easy to forget what direction we came from, and we’d end up on another blocked road.  If we weren’t careful, we’d find ourselves trapped in a hellish maze.” 

Even summer thunderstorms posed a threat to wind-weakened structures.

“We were driving along, when lightning struck a power pole beside the road.  It fell onto the adjacent pole which caused five more to fall against each other like dominoes” Alfred said ruefully.

The Stanfords discovered another frustrating wrinkle.  While passing through one rural neighborhood, they found a Hispanic family camping in a tent in front of their collapsed home. Emergency personnel hadn’t found them yet. Their car was destroyed during the storm, so they lacked transportation to seek out assistance. Jeannine related their story.

“The parents didn’t speak English, so their 5-year-old daughter translated for us.  We gave them ice and orange juice, along with whatever else we had in the van that they might use. But we couldn’t tell them how to obtain additional help because of the language barrier, as well as a 5-year-old child’s limited capacity to translate the information.  FEMA had no foreign language brochures for us to hand out during the early days of the rescue. So we did the best we could for them at the time, and hoped we could find our way back to bring more help.”

The one positive amidst so much tragedy was the immense generosity of the American people. Huge caravans of semi-trucks began arriving soon after the last gust of wind loaded with water, batteries, food, diapers, as well as personal hygiene and feminine products.  One 18-wheeler displayed a huge banner on both sides of its trailer that read “From Louisiana to Florida With Love.”

The outpouring of help stunned many Punta Gorda residents. 

“There was no electricity, so there weren’t any links to the outside world.  Other than the President’s initial visit, people couldn’t be certain that anyone else knew what happened to them until the relief trucks started rolling in” said Jeannine.

The losses affecting children were particularly heart breaking.

“One disappointed little boy was facing his sixth birthday without a present, until he was given a Beanie Baby from someone’s Happy Meal. His face lit up like a Christmas tree. It’s amazing how one little toy can bring happiness to a child who has nothing left.” Jeannine explained. “I saw another two year old boy with both hands wrapped in thick bandages. His mother explained that during the worst part of the storm, they’d sought shelter in a closet. Suddenly the roof blew off, and the wind began pulling her son out of her arms. She held onto his legs for dear life, as he reached out to grab something to hold onto.  Unfortunately what he reached for was a broken mirror that nearly severed both of his hands.”

Keeping a stiff upper lip in the face of tremendous loss was hard for Alfred and Jeannine.  Both reported having difficulty sleeping while in Punta Gorda despite their extreme exhaustion. 

“Every time we closed our eyes, all we could see was suffering. The first night I didn’t get to sleep until about 6 am.  I kept thinking how Charley was supposed to be our storm,” said Jeannine.

That’s a comment that many residents of Tampa Bay could relate to.  A lot of folks I’ve spoken to have suffered a profound sense of survivor’s guilt.  Like me, they grieve for those who took a blow that seemed intended for us.  And I am in awe of those in the trenches aiding the victims like Jeannine and Alfred, relief soldiers in a meteorological war zone.

Michelle Close Mills ©

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Slow Motion



Hubs and I never knew what it was like to have a home to ourselves until recently. From the moment we married we’d been a party of three.

Like a lot of young couples, Hubs and I “tested the water” prior to marriage. When I walked down the aisle, I was about six weeks pregnant with our daughter Julie. I didn’t realize she was in there until after the honeymoon and the smell of coffee (a staple in my diet) made my stomach roll.

When Julie came along, the years that followed are somewhat of a blur. Babyhood, homework, bubble baths, swing sets, report cards, school dances and graduation; there were so many beautiful, precious moments. Time simply flew by.  

It took quite a while to adjust to a having an empty nest. We’d raced around like maniacs for decades, thus dialing it back was unfamiliar territory.

Tonight, I came home and prepared to throw dinner together. I’ve gotten lazy over the years and let dinners like Hamburger Helper do the cooking. 

Suddenly I was seized by the desire to do it myself; the old fashioned way.

I sliced up some turkey sausage, red potatoes and onion.  After browning the onion, I added the potatoes and sausage, added garlic salt and fairy dust.  When my simple skillet concoction was done, the house smelled cozy and we ate like a couple of longshoremen. 

I can’t remember the last time I prepared something that didn’t come out of a box.

As I cleaned up the dishes and puttered around the kitchen, a cool breeze whooshed in and my darling purring furballs Maggie and Simon scampered around each other playing with a catnip mouse. Then a few of the Muscovy ducks from our pond waddled by the back porch, amiably quacking while foraging for bugs.

It seemed as though my world was in slow motion. 

Golly it felt good. 

I think I’ll do it again tomorrow. You should too.

Love and blessings,
Michelle

Enough is Enough




As the election draws near, it seems we are stumbling faster and further down a precipice of civility; one without a rope to pull us back up to safety.



Relationships that date back to the flood have been tossed aside like rubbish because of sharp disagreements over Democrat and Republican ideology. The more I listen the more I realize that what we argue about isn’t about whom will take the oath of office.


It’s about being RIGHT.


I wrote the following poem five years ago after some cousins went to war over their late father’s estate. They hadn’t spoken to him in years. But after he passed away they were willing to sacrifice all they’d ever been to each other to squabble over his knick knacks, a small insurance policy and a mobile home on a rented lot.


I can’t think of anything more pitiful. Except for over fifty million voters behaving the same way.



Enough


Why do we cling
to the talons of rage,
like the drowning grasp buoys
in a mad tossing sea?
When does one grant forgiveness,
and let it all go…
replacing cruelty
with peace,
condemnation
with agreement,
loathing
with the sweetness of love?
We often forget
what the fight was about…
yet we never forget
our angst and
our pride.
How much payback
will do
before anger destroys
our hearts,
our souls,
all that we are?
Like a cancer
eroding our lives
from within….
Is that pound of flesh
worth all we could lose?
When will enough
be enough? ©


Be good to each other. Love one another, as the Father loves you. He doesn’t care what’s printed on your voter registration card.


He looks at what’s printed on your heart.


Blessings,


Michelle